S a s u k e H i r o s h i

A dream

Sunday, June 7, 2009 speech bubble

Inspiration washed over me as I type this.
I really din't know what got into me.
I woke up as I broke into cold sweat.
...and here I am ,facing my laptop,typing out I what I'd seen.

It was so clear in my mind.As if it was meant to be etched there.
Some time ago, I had just brocken up with a guy.Lets call him..Edward.
Well..we were never together.So,broke up as in..I don't have the feelings I'd once had for him anymore.

In my dreams,weird as it may be,I was somehow preparing for some really big occasion in a restaurant near my house.My bother's wedding I think.
He was getting married to Colly. I was busy helping out.Until...I saw this cell phone laying on the cofee table.Weird,it wasnt mine.It wasn't Any of my family members'. But I picked it up anyway.

It read '2 new messages'

And they were both from Edward.

Curiousity got into me as my fingers itched towards the 'open' button.

It read:

" Yeah..I know.You said you're gonna kill yourself right? Well,you know what? I don't fucking care anymore. Im at (someone's name I don't remember.Sorry) 's house practicing sparing with him. So don't bug me anymore.And leave me alone.

Okaaay..weird.I wonder who's cell phone was this.
And I opened the other message.

It read:

I guess I don't need Camilla (my name) anymore.Now that I'd found a Camilla-like girl who concerns about me.She was even there.By my side when my parents start yelling and throwing things at each other again.She was there,craddling me in her small,skinny arms.She's real cheerful, like Camilla and she really reminds me a lot of her.

(Then picture of her appears) The girl (forgot her name again.Sorry guys) was real pretty. I gasped.Unable to believe what I saw before my eyes.She has the exact same features as I have.Only prettier. My hearts ached.and I read on.

Now that Camilla never bothers about me anymore,so I guess she doesn't care about me anymore.Ah,well...since I've met (The new girl in the picture) now..then I guess there is no longer any need to think about Camilla again.

I stood there.Holding the cell phone close to my chest.Feeling as if it would burst open any moment as my heart hurts like hell.I couldn't hold back my tears.I felt guilt.REGRET. That I'd never been there for him when he is facing family crisis.I felt so alone again.And so selfish!

I closed my eyes.Exhausted.And drifted off to sleep. Unaware of where I was.and the next thing that happened was....I was suddenly in a really huge and old jeep,heading down the heels.In an unamaginable speed.

with no breaks at all.

(Back to reality)
Then I woke up.
Curling into a ball.Feeling so afraid.