S a s u k e H i r o s h i

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Saturday, July 18, 2009 speech bubble

What is she doing?
Munching on a garlic bread and chocolate cupcakes and blogging.

And what is she supposed to be doing?
Bathing her dog,Wendy.then study.

Any current obssesion?
Hell,yeah!! Im back to getting crazy over harry potter!!
Harry.The Weaseley twins (cant get enough of them) Luna Lovegood. (shrieks)

Lmao.screw me people.
Aite.Here's this week's update.

The { G.S.A } meeting dint happen.Sarah was sick-absent.

Bought CLEO.

Met this guy from Tagged called Trae.He learns Ninjutsu(Awesome) .He expertises in Nunchuku.(Again,awesome) He has sexay abs.Demo ne.....he's Bi.How sad.

(whispers)I am currently obssesed with Nerd males. (scrrrrrrrew..)
I'd asked Daryl (a.k.a Naruto) whether he eats Ramen.And whaddaya know..he doesnt watch Naruto and he doesnt know what a ramen is. (slaps forehead in misery).He's into Classic animes 'tho.

Had a wonderful dream about myself and him.We were on a date.But the dream wasnt complete.He left,all of a sudden.

To a special someone..I dont know whether you'll be reading this or not.But..anyways.
You say you love me.But I don't.I'm kinda sure of it now.But I DO like you.Hell yes.But not love,no.Sorry.I feel HELPLESS without you around.I couldnt eat.I couldnt sleep.Heck,I'd even cry in my sleep.But,with you,I feel comfy ONLY for a moment.And then that feeling is gone.And,without knowing it,I avoid you.I dont wanna talk to you.And I have no idea why.Me and you..it just seems wrong to me.Heck.And know this.Im not a girl with feelings for someone for too long. (No,Im not into someone else.Well,at least not yet.) And I tend to get feelings very mixed up all the time.

For now? I dont want to belong to anyone.I want to be free.I want to like everyone else.I dont want to be bounded and chained. I want to be free.Thats what I am.

On July 14th,Hsien Yin kinda hurt me.More of insulted.Maybe she dint feel that way,but I did.

Okay,so here's where Im gonna confess to everyone on how I felt being in Prefects Board over the past 5 years.

Yes,many of you loathed me,thinking its not fair that I'd gotten into the board so easily without any much trials.I was loathed by Wan Yi.I was loathed by Hsien Yin and Chee Yien and gosh..maybe more. And I was loathed by all the other AJKs,including Low Zi Lin. Well,people.I had NEVER intended to join the board.It was Pn.Lee who'd talked me into it.And without ANY choice.ANY choice at all,Im being forced to join something I'd never wanted.To join something where people disliked me.And also where I had no friends and also,a place where I had to work my way up.And also,a place where people will talk behind my back.

Why is she even a prefect!? Darn..she's so cheng. Its not fair she got in! She's such a biatch. A rich kid who gets what she wants. Oooh..she's so SPOILT.

Well,you know what people? so what if I live a better lifestyle? There's no reason to go treating me like a bitch.and to insult me behind my back! I'd given EVERYTHING I can to make myself fit in.After years of hard struggle,I'd been appointed an S.G.L .Of course,many great leader had trained me.And I must say,Im very sorry to let you all down.And Hsien Yin,you'd told me once before that I have potential to do things.That really boosted my confidence up a little.I was so happy.
I couldnt be happier when I was finally appointed a G.L (Tho' Im not as good as the others)

Well..in the end,I still hear people not being happy with me.I really REALLY HATED it when people say Im rich and stuff.I just HATED it.

That day when Hsien Yin asked me about the Koku form marks,I dint know how to help her('Tho I'd suggested some ways) Then I asked whether the marks is used to enter Form 6 or to apply Matrix or whatsoever (Because I planned on going College,and they dont need such stuff there,according to Suz) And you know what she shot at me? Oh,Yeah hor..your dad is so rich,Im sure you'll be able to enter college.Why did I even bother asking you.
GAWD,I was SO furious at her.I felt so hurt and insulted! Many of you might not know how the feeling is..but..just put yourselves in my shoes.Just once....

I want you all to know.I may have a better living,but my family is not entirely perfect.Im sorry I cant let any secrets slip in here.But my best,trusted friend would know.That Im not in an entirely perfect family.It really hurts,that someone I had tried to love in my family betrays all of us,leaving nothing behind but hurt.I wish..and would really REALLY appreciate if you people will just DROP IT and stop using what I have against me.It just reminds me of what that betrayer is.AND I had never wished for any of this.Hsien Yin,if you can see this.I want to tell you.Please dont ever say that again.Because it'd really hurt.

The people who made me feel at home.

Bong Annie.
Some people JUST doesnt like her.Well,I did too.Because she's always so angry,and she doesnt like people to cross her.But,know this,she's a great listener at times,and she gives great advice to make you feel better.Yes,it is really hard to be her friend at times,but it is worth to try.

Sandra.
Gawd..if it werent for you.I'd never feel accepted into Prefects Board.You always seem so quiet,but you have your own way of thinking.And you'd always made me respect you,in your own way.And your a great listener,it was ALWAYS wonderful to turn to you with problems.Well,I just dint know who to turn to before.

Hannah and Zhi Yin.
The perfect couples to bergila-gila with.Hannah,you seemed like a trustworthy person,and I SO want to confide in you all my dark secrets sometimes.

Grace.
A very carefree person.I can never get tired of her laughter.
Meddled around with my younger niece,Chanelle.

MJ much?

Beatrice came over to cook for lunch on Wednesday and Friday.
She's amazing.I felt so helpless in the kitchen!

Spaghetti for two?
I was so bloated I couldnt move in my chair for 5 solid minutes.And I'd finished everything.

The amazing chef at work.

Egg-wrapped-fried rice on Friday.It was awesome.

On Thursday,I'd skipped BM tuition to catch Harry Potter's sneak peak.Its amazing I'd actually watched it on the first day.FIRST DAY,PEOPLE!!

Darn...its seven now..I guess I'll have to bathe Wendy next week then.
Study date with Adrian tommorow.We'll be doing Sejarah. (Brilliant) And to think he's on Bon Odori now!! (Japanese year;y he;d festival in KL) Darn him...but,he got something for me.Grudge's over. (Brilliant)

Currently reading Sookie Stachhouse series : Definately Dead.