Messed and ****** up
post Sunday, December 6, 2009 speech bubble 0 comment(s)

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Everything's going so crazy right now.
The world spinning the other way round.
I killed another crazy 5 hours at KFC and in school today,finally finishing the form four syllabus.Borring..At the same time,i can't stop feeling incredibly helpless.

Did the usual incredibly boring routine of my daily life.
Fed the dog.
Brought the dog out.
Stare at the ceiling.

What Im exactly feeling right now is as if a huge bucket of water filling up slowly,rising to its fullest and then threatens to spill the whole chunk out. Suddenly everything is so unstable.The insecure feeling that you get when the groung might just split open anytime and swallow you up? Yeah.

The balcony has always been a great place to collect my feelings or to let 'em all out at once.

Initially, I'd intended to sit at the edge of the balcony for a while..but I somehow sat there for an hour thinking about nothing but him..Suz generously called and talked to me about him.And I've somehow saw some sense.And Im gonna do exactly as what she said.

I watched the sky turn dark.I let my tears flow with the wind for a last time.I let the cold wind tear me apart.And I let every single song on my playlist end.Then I decided to do something that'd get my mind off things.

H.B.O had amazingly turned a crying girl-who has gotten sick of doin so-into a LOL person who'd nearly lost her voice just by laughing.Crazy enough,my brothers joined me watching it.
Seriously,Step Brothers=stupid=so-lame-that-its-so-good=I enjoyed it.

Here's what Im gonna do until he's back to himself the way I KNEW him: Im not gonna bug his busy life.Im gonna make myself NOT exist.And Im making myself busy 24/7.Im FORCING myself to do this by all means.I can't take it anymore.ESPECIALLY when it doesnt even bother him one bit.

Here's some words to the two persons out there:

"Thank you so much much for your advice,but i'm not leaving him.Im gonna quarantine myself and see how things go."-Heck,even my sis-in-law said the same thing.Supportive much?
sasukehiroshi.

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