Needing a solution.
post Wednesday, December 2, 2009 speech bubble 0 comment(s)

I told myself I could handle it.
I mean...how hard could it get?
I was wrong.
So.very,wrong.

I need a solution.

SO STRESSED OUT!!!

To not THINK of him so much.
To not WANT him so much.
To not WISH for more of his attention.
To not PRAY that he would be more considerate.

I have no idea.NO IDEA AT ALL how he does it,and its driving me crazy.
Since when have I gotten so prone to him?
Again,I have no idea.
What I know is that,this madness has to come to a stop.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR IT TO END!

Okay people,time for you guys to give me a piece of your mind.
WHAT should a love-sick girl do to not think of a person whom she loves so much?

My sister once said: "If a guy makes you cry more than you laugh,you don't have any reason at all to be with him."
Two months ago,I'd have disagreed with her.To me,her words din't make sense at all.I mean,if you truly love a guy,no matter how hard it takes,you have to work your way through.Its sort of like a labyrinth where you have to smash your way out.

Just three more papers..

But then again.I JUST might agree with her.Im starting to experience the symptoms of my sister's theory.WHICH IS THE VERY REASON WHY I'M PANICKING NOW.

So..I decided to take matters to my own hands.

I tried not texting him for a whole day.

I tried not to call/accept his calls.

EverytimeI think of him,I'd make sure I make myself busy to occupy my thoughts.

..........Things still din't work out.
In fact,I lost focus for so many countless times.Both while studying and in SPM hall.Wtf,right?

I used to tell him I don't trust him anymore.This was because what he said and what he did didn't compromise.Im really sorry to say this.But its how I feel.

Each time I told myself that he loves me and there's no point being a stupid head and worry about anything.But I always ended up eaten by confusion,insecureness or worse,paranoia.

Darn it..**** it.Im just so MAD at him I wanna knee him in the stomach and sock him so bad he won't be able to walk for days.But being mad at him,WEIRDLY,makes me go even crazier about him.

I'm so lost...I need someone to tell me what to do.I'm really,really,really tired of going round in circles.

SAVE ME

(=.=) Great.I'm having physics exam tommorow and Im worried about this shit.

If he's just too busy for me;
If he's getting SICK of me;
If he doesn't want me anymore;
He should have said no in the first place.
So neither of us have to go through all this shit.

Wish me luck tommorow,
XOXO.
sasukehiroshi.

Hi lovely reader. I'm an Interactive Media Student, currently residing in Sunny Singapore. I enjoy a cup of tea, working in my happy corner, losing track of time. I daydream a lot and have a love for analogue cameras.


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