S a s u k e H i r o s h i

Rejuvenating..

Friday, April 2, 2010 speech bubble

Sincere appologies...this blog is down for maintainance.

-Sheah right.

Mistress I am busy for I'm doing all the enrolment forms/student pass app./finding hostel,etc. No idea why Im so stressed for.

As I was saying. I won't be updating for a while.(who knows? maybe I just might update tommorow,mweh. )

No worries,Miss Awesome, I , am pretty much alive.
Here's my following schedule (roughly)

3/4/10 - Do my medic check-up
5-7/4/10 - International Student Reporting day & Immersion Programme
9/4/10 - Back to Melaka to collect my Lappie/pack/{G.S.A} gathering

12-16/4/10 - School's Orientation

Next post : School Orientaion

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Im tired of feeling lost.
Im tired of seeing another person in you.
Im tired of laughing when with you,then break down when apart.
Im tired of missing you.
Im tired of pretending everything wasnt real and had never happened.
Im tired...of waking up each morning finding my heart gone.

I can deal with it in the daytime,but not at night.Those memories haunt me like a ghost.No joke.
>>Wayne: Thanks for putting up with me again. LOL. I guess it really is the curse between me and December-ians.Aha.

I'll boldly say this. 'tho im quite certain you may never find my new URL and see this.
Dear persona,
Im tired of running anymore. I miss you.Badly.Everytime I see you,I somehow smile.Tis' because my heart remembers how it used to love you.How we used to be in each other's embrace.

I wont say Im gonna start moving on and forget you.
Do you know how hurtful it was when you said "I want us to be friends" ?
What hurts more was,you told me yourself that one of the reason for this is because he-who-must-not-be-named told you that you have no taste and all for being with me.
I'd made so much efforts,keeping away from you.Carefully avoiding you,to not reopen the wound. and yes,its not fair for me to say so for I have hurt you maybe even more times.
But I am not you.Please do not compare us.

For the past three months,I'd pray everyday,hoping that you'd regret and reconsider.I know,I was being selfish huh?(shrugs) I couldnt help it. I nearly lost my mind if it werent for my friends. Thinking about back then,I feel kinda silly myself.Its like...trying to make the waterfall flow the other way round.

Now ,(part of me still having strong feelings for you) I can only retrieve back what is mine and not yours to keep.
My Heart.
Maybe it will take 2 years / 3 years. But until then,I will not fully move on until I get every piece of my heart back from you.

Lastly,I appologize. I cannot put up with any of this anymore.It just seemed..IMPOSSIBLE for me to be friends with you.Again,I know Im selfish to think that way. At least I'd tried. Maybe its time we really should just move on from each other and live our lives individually.

Your childhood friend,
joanna.