Insecure.Temptation. What's next?
post Tuesday, June 22, 2010 speech bubble 0 comment(s)

Have you ever felt...so..MISERABLE all of a sudden, and you cannot seem to figure out the reason why?

I have.

And it happens nearly everyday now.
Every since things changed.
Ever since that day.
I have no choice but to change. I dont like the idea of losing that important thing again.

i feel like smashing every single fragile thing infront of myself at this moment and then use my bare hands to grab them real TIGHT till my hands bleed,then ramn myself against the wall til Im half conscious. Finally,I'd sit down to feel the pain eating me up slowly, and watch my blood flow til no more.

At this moment, it seems so tempting. It could release me from whatever pain I have been holding back. I have no one to talk to about this. No, i DO have someone. But I choose not to. because telling them changes nothing.

I need Jesus.
I tried not to think about it. But I somehow forced myself to.
Because I NEED ANSWERS.
I dont even KNOW what MASK Im putting on.
Everthing is so strange right now.
Its even strange that I even post this.

I feel so messed up.
Everything's fine. and Everything's a mess at the same time.
I NEED ANSWERS!
sasukehiroshi.

Hi lovely reader. I'm an Interactive Media Student, currently residing in Sunny Singapore. I enjoy a cup of tea, working in my happy corner, losing track of time. I daydream a lot and have a love for analogue cameras.


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