Sunday, December 18, 2011 0 comment(s)

So, my mamma's told me not to fall for the same guy that doesn't love you. Not just that, we had an argument in the car earlier today. I am not to meet the boy who had hurt me so badly a year back.

And I'm here to tell you, I am about to break that promise.

I sure hope I don't regret it.

See, I am now seeing apple who is (or was) his close friend. But then again, my thoughts somehow always went back to orange's.

I was out drinking with Pear and friends earlier. I told pear, my heart might still be beating for orange. I don't know. I told Pear everything. Pear's a really reliable person. He sits there and hears me talk.

All he said at the end was, "Do what you feel is right."

Some years back, I'd always tell the very same advice to my friends. Now, I'd just get irritated at this same answer over and over. But then again. it is the best advice yet. DO WHAT YOU THINK IS RIGHT.

So, I decided to text orange. I asked orange out to have a good talk, it has been a while.

Little did I know, my heart was beating really fast. Nervous? It has been a long while since I felt that way.

I was pleased by his answer.

I'd love to. :)

It's time I really sort out my feelings. I guess I should be able to tell once I really meet orange sit down and have a good talk.

There are a lot of 'what ifs' and questions I don't have the answers to. Right now? I'm more terrified than anything else.

There is a question I really wanted to know. But I dread the outcome of it.

I dread that. we may not be able to be friends again if I tell him exactly what I'm feeling.

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Happy Birthday, orange.

over and out.